No Anak Angkat

Last update ade citer pasal anak angkat kan.... Hrmmm.... Cancelled! Why yer? Masa sy jumpe dia, NGO yg jaga girl tu citer yg ibu baby tu mmg nk baby tu & she's 24 years old. Bf dia pun mmg nk kahwin dgn dia. Tp parents lelaki x berkenan dgn dia. Jadi diaorg plan nk kahwin di Thailand selepas habis berpantang nanti.... Walaupun ader black& white. Kami tetibe rasa ragu nk ambl baby tu.... Mcm high possibility dia nk ambil or dtg melawat slalu... in other way, we will be their nursery plak.... That's it!

Rindu...... Baby...!

Dah lama tak melawat blog ni... Hrmmmm...

Ni progress terkini:

July: We decided to make a u-turn to Klinik LPPKN.... Alhamdulillah... Dr.Hamizah still accept us... Trus proceed with IUI Treatment.

WHY? Klinik Dr.Hamid tu ok... Tp Dr.Hamid terlalu bz orgnyer & sy tak suke assistant Dr.Hamid tu... Dr.praktikal kut.... huhuhu... Dia tambah dos Clomid sy to 250mg and I'm scared with the effect... huhuhuhuhu...

So, bln tu wat IUI di LPPKN... CLOMID 100mg + Injection selang sehari. Sakit wooo... Nasib ada Dr.Hubby... However, the result is Negative.

August: Ramadhan! Rehat for any treatment.

September: Period masa Aidilfitri. So, tak der chance utk jumpe Dr.Hamizah gak. And sy feel down because tak dapat buat treatment. Tapi.... Jeng.. Jengg... Jeng...... Akhirnya Berita Gembira datang gak....

En.Hubby dlm diam ada menghubungi NGO yg menguruskan Anak Angkat untuk dibela. At first sy feel 50%-50%... Sy rasa kami masih belum usaha till end of the road... But, kesungguhan En.Hubby membuatkan sy ikutkan sahaja and both of us found our happiness.... Semoga segalanya berjalan lancar....

InsyaAllah... The expected due date is 04/11/2011. If ibu nyer tak berubah fikiran... We will have our own daughter.. Opps... Katenyer baby girl... Amin! Nama aper yer? Mcm mana nk bagi susu yer? If I keje, siapa nak jaga dia yer...? huhuhuhu....... Many questions keep flying in my head.............

Delay Period & Proceed with 2nd IUI

Delay period...? hehehee... ni la 1st time sy delay period sejak wat treatment dgn Dr.Hamid. If dikira2... sy delay 6 hari... hari ke 7 Ms.P dtg... Dlm 6 hari tu asyik prasan je... huhuhuhu... Smpai sy reject perlawaan suami utk 'bersama'. sy takut something bad happen sbb masih baru... Akhirnya dia dtg jugak... Terpaksa la en.suami bersabar untuk seminggu lagi... Sian gak.. Berdosa ke sy?

Now, nak proceed iui utk kali ke-2. Hari ke 15 ialah 10hb ni. Tp, mak mentua sy nak dtg dgn adik2 nyer plak... eeeiiiii.. bkn x suke... tp x sesuai masernye.... nk gi Genting Highland... tp baru pas iui, dr. kate x bleh outstation n kene bykkan rehat... hrmmm.. harap x de paper la...

TVS Scan on 14th Day without CLOMID

Semalam hari yg ke-14. As I mentioned earlier, bulan ni x wat paper treatment. Tp pas habis period hari tu, I went to Klinik utk ambil CLOMID for next month cycle. Nak try for 2nd IUI. Since, bulan ni x wat paper treatment. Tringin sgt gak nak wat TVS Scan. Just wondering if without clomid. Ader ke x telur nye????? So, semalam I took half day leave. Smpai Bukit Damansara dalam pukul 1pm. Klinik tengah waktu rehat, 2.30pm baru bleh naik. Then, utk tidak membuang masa. I gi wat Body Massage kat Bali Spa. Sebaris ngan Klinik tu gak and kebetulan tak ada customer.

Tepat 2.30pm, gi le klinik. Nurse tu arrange me dgn Dr. lain. Dr. Praktikal kut. x kisah la... janji dia tau gune TVS Scan tu... Tp mmg unexperience le. Hrmmmm.... At last, ada 1 biji telur. Sebelah kiri gak. Size nye 18mm... Bak kata Dr. tu most probably hari ke-15 / 16 baru telur tu matang... hehehehehe... So, HAPPY! Means I'm can have my own egg without CLOMID.

Since smua supplement yg Prof bagi hari tu dah habis. Dr. ni suggest me to buy Acai Berry & Fish Oil. Katanya bleh membantu utk matangkan telur. Fish Oil byk lagi kat umah. So, I beli Acai Berry ni je la.... RM70 for 1 month supply. Means each pill cost RM2.333333.

1st IUI - Result: Failed

My BBT Chart for this cycle...!

Failed..! Hari ni Ms.P dtg menjengah. Tepat pd masanya. x sempat delay sehari pun. huhuhuhuhu...

Hubby kate nak buat iui lagi skali bulan dpn. Ermmm.. I don't feel so... Nak rehat sebulan dulu. If nk proceed pun, maybe on next June...

Ermm... utk tidak m'stress kan diri. I ada plan utk May ni. 1st, I nak start makan Jamu Ratu Dara le... Dh beli. Tp x start lagi sbb wat iui hari tu kan. Based on testimoni, JDR tu bleh rawat masalah keputihan. Masa wat iui hari tu, mmg Dr. ader tegur.

2nd. Everyday I nak blk tepat pd pukul 5.45pm. I will join Body Transformation Camp. Mcm biasa, I t'beli voucher from MYDEAL.COM.MY. RM39.90 for two weeks unlimited visit. Harap bleh turunkan berat badan sikit within 2 weeks tu. X best la rasenyer depends on diet je. Plus, I can meet a new friends.

Both practices towards a same mission. Baby! That's all.

Hujung minggu depan kene balik kg. Kenduri Tahlil utk arwah bapak mertuaku. Hrmmm... x larat le nak layan soalan2 cepumas diaorg nanti. Rase berat je nk blk.. uwwaaaaa...

8th April 2011 - 1st IUI Treatment

Period from 26th March - 31st March 2011. 6 days... Start makan CLOMID (4 biji-200mg) for 5 days.

On Monday 28th March - I call Klinik Dr.Hamid to make an appointment for my 1st IUI Treatment. Since 15th (Expected ovulation date was fall on Saturday), the appointment date was set up on 8th March @ 14 day of the cycle.

8th March (AM) - Sampai je di klinik pd pukul 8.30am... Dah ramai yg menunggu giliran rupanya... but since i have a special treatment... cepat gak dpt jumpe Dr. Then, Dr. wat TVS... Terror Dr. ni... x tgk pun Private Part tu.. terus jolok je scanner tu... huhuhuhu... Betul le kate org... Dr. ni mmg x byk ckp... He just said.. Ok! ader telur.. petang ni bleh buat iui... huhuhuhu.. I pun tanyer le... Ader brape biji? Size?... Br le dia ckp... Ader 3 biji yg dh matang ni... size 18mm ke 28mm... tu cm x dengar sgt.. Smua kat sebelah kiri... Patutle rase sengal je sblh kiri ni.. hehhehehe.... Rupenye smua berkumpul kat situ... Then, Dr. kuar.. Nurse tu bg injection utk pecahkan telur tu katernyer... Cucuk kat bontot k... n print gambar scan tadi...

Kuar dari bilik. Nurse tu kate dtg blk dalam kul 2.30pm...Mase tu br 9.30am... huhuhuhu.. maner la kiteorg nk merewang ni... byr parking utk smpai kul 11am plak tu.. hehehe.. nasib parking DBKL tu murah.. 1 jam - RM.050...

Then, teringat yg sy ader beli coupon from MYDEAL.COM.MY... coupon utk gi S SPA kat Solaris Dutamas... pe lagi... merengek le kat hubby.. suh bw gi sane... Hubby pun ikut kan je le... Smpai kat sane... SPA tu tak bukak lagi.. Actually saje je cube nasib... sbb tak wat appointment lagi kan... kul 11am.. As exepected... smua dh penuh... so, just make an appointment...17 June br ader kosong... Staff S SPA tu ckp 1400 bought the coupon.. so, mmg long queu ler...

At last, we decided to go to MID VALLEY... gi mkn kat SWEETCHAT... our favourite place... dah lamer tak dtg... siap dah tukar floorplan nyer...

We ate Spaghetti with Black Pepper Chicken & Spaghetti wit Spicy Oriental Minced Chicken. Yummy! Smua Sedap!

Just nice je masanya... jln2 kejap kat Guess boutique... Masuk MPH.... Then, sharp at 2pm... Both of us gerak ke Klinik Dr.Hamid Arshat... hehehehe.. NERVOUS...

Sampai je di klinik dlm kul 2.30pm.. Then, hubby pun dibawa masuk ke lab. Officer in charge ialah En.Suffian. Utk m'produce kan benish sperm nyer. heheheh... I plak tgk je le tv.. ngantuk pun ader... sbb perut kenyang kan.. duk plak atas sofa yg lembut... sunyi... hehehhee... dlm pukul 3.15pm.. Hubby dh kuar... heheheh.. so, skunk tgh tunggu proses Sperm Washing.

Dlm pukul 4.15pm... It's my turn... For the finale process.... Alhamdulillah! Smua dh selesai. Tp x tahu plak bleh dpt MC. hehehehe.. Total cost RM725 = RM650 (IUI) + RM75(INJECTION)

Nurse tu kate if jadi ke x jadi ke... Call them... JGN wat keje berat, JGN outstation... hhehehhee...

Amin! Smua proses nampak cam berjalan lancar. Harap2 ALLAH permudahkan lah rezki kami utk dpt baby...!

Why I didn't update my blog?

Dah lamer x update blog ni.. heheheheh.... March 2011...

The whole month i gave my full attention to my job... Ader beribu2 lemon account Overdraft yang tak review lagi... And the deadline was End of month...

Mmg ader ramai lagi staff lain... tp bleh dikatakan smua hnya wat yg ter'mampu je katenyer... But for me... I have my own mission to achieve in April.. Therefore, I nk habiskan smua kerja ni and hopefully less stress in April 2011 nanti.. heheheheeh....

Tiap2 hari stayback... Saturday pun datang... hehehehe.. my ex-colleague yg dh keje kat bank lain pun surprise... "hey, maner perginyer prinsip u yg x kan stayback and keje on saturday??" hehheheheee....

Answernye mudah je... I x suke dipaksa... if u force me to come... I won't... tp bila x de sesaper yg memaksa ni.. and u pk la sndri cmner u nk manage ur job... senang je... Ciap gado ngan hubby lagi... dia duk risau i blk lambat, travel by LRT... kat kwsn raja laut tu kan black area... sblh jln TAR... dkt ngan Chow Kit...

Jejantas kat depan Sime Darby tu plak ader budak mental maner yg duk hisap gam... Tp if gelap sgt, I akan redah seberang jalan yg MAHA sibuk kat bwh jejantas tu...

The idea of 'urut' utk HAMIL

I LOVE TO VISIT SPA... My hubby x menghalang or galakkan the idea of SPA... pdhal gi SPA tu mesti la utk ber'urut kan.. eh.. salah term.. MASSAGE...

Tp bile dia dengar the idea of 'urut' utk hamil or they call it as urut sengkak... dia trus x mau cayer n trus nk b'konfrontasi dgn gwe... eeiiii..

Petikan ayat dari Seorang Dr.sakit puan di Berita harian: Dari segi perubatan tiada logiknya untuk membetulkan kedudukan rahim puan kerana rahim yang kembali normal iaitu sebesar enam hingga tujuh sentimeter akan berada dalam rongga pelvis. Rongga pelvis ini terbentuk daripada beberapa tulang yang melindungi rahim tadi. Kita tidak dapat memegangnya jauh sekali pula untuk membetulkan kedudukannya. Rahim dalam kedudukan mana sekali pun adalah normal dan tidak menyukarkan puan untuk hamil. Ini bermakna puan jangan pergi berurut. Namun, berurut membantu jika puan mahu lebih berasa tenang, tidak berasa tertekan dan secara psikologinya mungkin boleh membantu puan.

Ni kate dr. sy plak...


Bagi sy plak... WHATEVER yg org kate bagus... sy mesti la nak cuba kan... no matter what... slagi x memudaratkan diri... eeiiiiii...

Super Sperm

2nd visit to Klinik Dr.Hamid

Hari ni gi ambil ubat utk 2nd cycle... Mase tunggu tu I sembang dengan 1 patient tu.. kakak tu dtg ambil ubat gak.. Dia dari Tanjung Malim tu... huhuhuhu.. Dah 7 thn kahwin... sblum ni treatment di hospital selayang. Dh 6 bln dia under treatment with dr.hamid. hrmmm... mcm2 masalah kesburan ni....

Then....

ader org call nurse kat situ... dari pe yg sy dengar... "oh, upt positive ye.. puan dh gi klinik? puan mkn dulu ubat klinik tu sbb lepas raye cina dr. x de... klinik x bg paper ubat?" then nurse tu set kan appointment utk puan yg call tu....

I feel like... uwwaaaa... bler la turn sy nk call nurse tu bgtau sy dh preggy.....

SPA CENTRE @ REST ON OVULATION DAY

Biasenyer I akan visit TANAMERA SPA di Subang. Suasanyer pun best. Since one of my personality characteristic is love to try or learn new thing... So, I decided to visit TAJRII SPA on 12th. Next ovulation for my 2nd cycle... I guess it will be on 11th to 13th of February. Just want to relaxing myself on the said date.....

Obtained voucher from TAJRII SPA via their FB. Just click like then u will get the voucher...

Hopefully best le kan...

1st TrY - Unsuccessful

Fail... Ms.P dah dtg... If refer to BBT... suhu hari ni kire ok lagi... x de le jatuh lagi... 36.66celcius... huhuhuhuhuhu.... X per la... Chaiyok! Gwe x kan putus asa.... Ya Allah... Hanya pdMu kami memohon.. dan hanya pdMu kami berserah... Amin!

RumahKu SyurgaKu....

Ini lah apmt baru kami... X dpt kunci lagi pun... Mungkin dlm sebulan lagi kut... Besa le... Legal documentation x settle lagi... Lawyer ckp diaorg dh hantar letter of advise to release pd bank. Lagi satu tunggu developer nyer reply. Developer umah ni masalah sikit... Sbb property ni dulu abandoned project. Umah ni mmg kosong and x pernah org duduk. Owner lamer cina. Pernah mase pas sign S&P dulu. Gwe try my luck to minta kunci dulu. Sbb x de org duduk kan. Tp agent ckp dia x bagi. Kononnyer lawyer dia suh tunggu everything settle. If dpt, dpt la free duduk utk 2,3 bulan kan... Lagipun umah tu mmg kosong, elektrik pun x de lagi... Grill... lagi le x de... Harap2 jgn kene month yg dua2 umah kene byr dah la... uma sewa kene.. uma baru plak dh kene start bayar...

Mase Dec 2010, kami ader gi HOMEDEC kat KLCC... Kami byr deposti utk Floor Depot (RM900) & LAMEX Wallpaper (RM500). Valid for 1 year. Tp slalu gak diaorg call tnyer biler nak install. Hrmmmm.....

Utk Grill,kitchen cabinet & plaster ceiling (if bajet lebih) je x brape sure lagi.... kat maner and saper yg ok....

Harap everything ok le kan......

Singapore & Thailand - Dec 2010-

Singapore di Selatan Malaysia & Thailand di Utara Malaysia. Bkn shj dari segi kedudukan dua negara ini... From my personal view... Singapore maju setapak di hadapan Malaysia & begitu juga dgn Thailand... Mereka setapak di belakang Malaysia.... Kami singgah di kedua2 negara ni pd December lalu.... Singapore mmg bersih dan rakyat nya mmg berdisplin... buat kami rase... eeiii.. ni x bleh.. tu x bleh..... boring.... Biler di Thailand plak.... celaru nyer... semak nyer... pening nyer... Whatever it is... Malaysia is the best.... Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!

KAEDAH BBT to Detect Ovulation Date

My Ovulation Chart

Ni la chart pertama sy setakat hari ni... Mule2 tu mmg susah.. lame2 jadi addicted... everymorning 5.30am... ni la bende first yg sy wat...then, lelap blk jap... then baru bangun..... if tgk pattern nyer.. kwn2 di forum ratuhati.com kate cam air terjun and kate ader harapan... AMIN! x tau le... sbb first time kan... x bleh nak compare dgn cycle bln lain...

Due Date:	If you conceived this cycle your due date would be: October 07, 2011
Summary:	At least 2 cycles are necessary to accurately determine your usual cycle length and luteal phase. Without this information, Fertility Friend is suggesting to wait 18 days after ovulation before testing.

Miracle Day.. Rezki Day... PART 3

Mmg telah tertulis... Hari tu mmg rezki kami utk berjumpe dgn Dr.Hamid.... Humble je org nyer... Dr. tgk smua result test yg sy bw... "Hrmmm... Seems like Ok... maner silapnyer yer? katenyer... PCOS.. tp borderline........ Period Regular... Cume overweight ni mmg masalah... Hormone inbalance" "2 bulan pertama ni.. cuba Natural way dulu... If x berhasil... Rehat sebln.. Following month, kite proceed dgn IUI ye..." Both of us hanyer anggukkan kepale.. "If ader yg x faham.. visit my website and FB yer" "and please stop all the junkfoods and fastfood ye"

hhehehehhhhheehehehe...

Hadiah yg kami dpt utk dibawa pulang:

Utk Hubby - Speman (Himalaya) & Fish Oil

Me - Clomid utk 2 cycle (if bln ni berjaye, yg 2nd cycle tu bleh refund)

- Saw Palmetto (Utk Hormone) Adipex (Utk kurangkan berat badan)

- Metformin (Utk kurangkan gula dalam badan)

Sblm balik, gwe tegur Staff Registrar tadi..."Kak, jgn la mare yer..." dia jawab:"eh, x mare le... tp kene le blanje makan... sbb dh skip turn org lain.. awal sbln tu..."

SMILE!SMILE!SMILE!

Miracle Day.. Rezki Day... PART 2

Hubby kuar and tarik gwe.. terkezut! "nak gi maner ni?" jom la....... rupe2 nyer hubby nak tunjuk sperm dia melalui microscope... En.Suffian pun ader skali and dia gelak.. mungkin lucu bagi nyer dgn reaction ku....Sperm tu rupenyer mcm berudu la.... heheheheh... berenang di dlm rahimku.. itu ke...? hehehehhee... Exciting Moments!

Then, duduk semeja dgn En.Suffian...

En.suffian: "x nak jumpe prof ke?"

Sy:"Nak! Nak sgt... tp staff dpn tu kate kene wat appointment awal sebulan...." kekekekeke....

En.Suffian: "Eh! mmg le gitu... tap if x de patient.. bleh je jumpe prof.. betul ke nak jumpe ni?

Sy: "betul la"

En.Suffian:" Jum ikut sy!"

Kami b'dua pun ikut le.. dgn hati yg berdebar-debar... En.Suffian trus pergi ke staff registrar tu... kompem dh x de patient lain and mmg sorang x dtg.... En.Suffian suruh kami berdua register... Staff tu jawab "WHATEVER"

Baiknyer En.Suffian ni... hehehehehe.. dia ciap tunggu smpai kami dpt masuk blk dr.... hehehehe...... Jasamu Kan Ku Kenang Sampai Biler2....

Miracle Day.. Rezki Day... PART 1

Sampai je di Klinik... Hubby trus jumpe dgn En.Suffian utk wat sperm test... Sy tunggu di luar and say... Good Luck Cyg... hehehehe... Ramai nyer patient dia... Staff2 nyer pun cbuk... x de mase nk tnyer naper sy duk t'congok dpn diaorg... But I don't mind.. sy mmg nk duduk situ...sbb waiting room dia kat bilik lain... Sy tgk couple demi couple masuk ke bilik dr... Rasenyer ader le dlm 5 couple yg same age as me... mude2... Smua yg dtg tu mmg yg dh wat appointment.... sblm jumpe dr. staff dia akan ambl berat badan and blood presssure... 11.30pm makin b'kurang patient nyer... since staff dia wat bodo je kan... dgn hati yg tekad sy tnyer staff registrar...

Sy: "Kak, boleh sy tau... ader tak patient yg dh wat appointment tp x jadi dtg today" kakak tu jeling same gwe...

Staff: "x de.. naper tanyer"

Sy: "if ader yg x jadi dtg.. bleh sy jumpe dr? sy ader wat appointment.. tp bln feb nanti..."

Staff:"x bleh, smua patient dtg. kene ikut date appointment awak ye"

sy: SMILE!

Tak lamer lepas tu.. sy dengar senior nurse situ tnyer kat staff registrar tu... "ader patient lagi tak... if x de, aku nk balik dh ni..." she reply "ader lagi sorang, tapi tepon2 tak angkat pun."

Dlm hatiku... Give me her chance please... Please.. Please.. No one border...........

Thank You Harimau Malaya

Terima Kasih Harimau Malaya sbb bagi smua rakyat Malaysia cuti on 31 December 2010. Hari tu sgt penting utk kami berdua..... Our dream came true to visit Klinik Dr.Hamid Arshat di Damansara... Bagi sy mmg rezki sgt2.... Kebetulan pulak, Klinik Dr.Hamid x tutup sbb ramai org dh wat appointment.... hehehehehe...

Walaupun appointment yg sy wat 2nd February... we still visit the clinic sbb hubby nak wat sperm test... dlm hati sy mengharapkan lagi satu keajaiban tuhan.. iaitu dgn harapan dpt jumpe Dr.Hamid hari tu gak... jadi sy bw smua blood test result yg sy dh wat di LPPKN... tersimpan rapi di dlm beg...

Note: Dr. kat LPPKN KL cuti... tu yg tukar dr. tu....

Appointment dgn Dr.Hamid Arshat

Ramainyer patient dia? giler la... kene wat appointment awal sebulan... since sy call on 29th Dec... sy wat appointment utk berjumpe dr. on 2nd February 2011... tu pun x sure bleh gi ke x... sbb my hubby just start keje kat tempat baru... still under probation... x dpt le cuti lagi kan... tp sy book je tarikh tu.. mengharapkan miracle... Sy dh tekad utk mulekan fertility treatment after 2 years... sy ader 12 kali je peluang... Dah tolak Jan 2011.. tinggal lagi 11 chances... But I still kene cari jalan utk suruh hubby gi wat sperm test dulu.. When?

Dah ader ke belum? Biler lagi?

'Tahukah engkau siapakah orang yang mandul'. Berkata para sahabat: 'Org yg mandul adalah org yg tidak mempunyai anak'. Lalu Rasulullah SAW berkata: 'Org yg mandul adalah org yg mempunyai anak ramai anak tetapi anak-anaknya itu tidak memberi kemanfaatan kepadanya sesudah ia meninggal dunia'

What say you? or you will still keep asking? Hrmmm.... Sy x brape nak kisah sgt biler org tanyer soalan2 cepumas tu... But It's make me wondering... macam maner nak jawap? Dia ni x nampak ke? Do I look like I'm pregnant? Caring ke dia kat sy? huhuhuhu....

SMILE! itu je le jawapan saya...